Yesterday marked six months since communication with my twin ceased. That was the day he texted me well wishes after telling me we couldn’t communicate anymore. I deleted all texts from him not long after out of fear my husband would hack into my phone and read everything. I wish I had saved those texts […]Read more "Chapter 24: Six Months"
I continue to be prepped by my Companion (vertical twin) for our complete merge. I had a lucid dream encounter with him a few days ago indicating my progress in this merge. April 10, 2017 I fell into a lucid dream. I was at my mother’s house in the living area and knew my Companion […]Read more "Chapter 23: Full Circle"
After yesterday’s realizations about my horizontal (physical) twin, it became clear that movement forward for me would have to be without him. At this point in time, my upset about this reality has diminished substantially. There is a very physical need nearing compulsion to come into complete and total Union with the masculine at all […]Read more "Chapter 22: Preparation for Vertical Alignment"
When I woke up this morning, I felt very calm and happy. It seemed like the entire twin situation was resolved. I felt relief, like “It’s finally over”. Prior to waking I heard the message, “You’re excluded.” I saw a vision then of the word “You” but it was spelled differently. Like Yui instead of […]Read more "Chapter 21: Insight"
I continue to emerge from the darkness that resulted after the separation from my twin. It is clear that this process is a slow one. I have heard others compare separation from their twin to that of the Dark Night of the Soul. I have gone through both now, and I must say that there […]Read more "Chapter 20: On Again, Off Again"
March has been a month of emergence for me. Emergence from the deep, dark depths of despair. I have emerged slowly but am gaining momentum. Carefully peeling away at the remaining layers of the onion that is my False Self, working diligently to get to my core and True Self. This is the Wholeness I […]Read more "Chapter 19: Kundalini Returns"
For more than a week in February I remained in a perpetual high on life. I was so happy, so relieved of the darkness I felt I would never escape, that I began to enjoy the simple things in life more. Food was a top priority. I began to eat for the pleasure of it […]Read more "Chapter 18: Stabilization"