Lots of activity in the last month. Anxiety The anxiety and panic attacks have stopped. It was gradual at first, so I was uncertain if they had actually gone or if they were taking a sabbatical and would return without notice. Over a week ago my husband left on business again (he is still gone) […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 20 – Taking It Slow"
The time since my last post has been difficult. I suffered through ever increasing panic episodes, mostly when driving but also when doing other things in public. When driving to and from work I often experienced more than one panic attack and would have to breathe deeply and talk myself through each one. It made […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 19 – Feeling Stuck"
I’m not sure where to start but I need to update before there is just too much for one post. After I posted my last post I came to realize that I not only needed to disconnect from Ray in all ways (which I did), but also from S. So that is what I did. […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 18 – Swift Change"
Since my last post I have entered into a kind of void or emptiness that is leaving me feeling quite lost and directionless. This feeling is common for me in this lifetime so I have learned how to cope quite well but I think I am reaching a point where I cannot manage it like […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 17 – Grief Stricken and Hopeless"
Once again I have been absent from this blog for much longer than intended. And once again so much has transpired that I am at a loss and bit overwhelmed on how to go about writing this post. I guess I will fill in the blanks with tidbits from my personal blog and commentary to […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 16 – Going Back to Kansas"
It’s been a little longer between posts than usual and even today I am hesitant about writing. When I wait this long there is so much to write that I often become overwhelmed and shut down. At this point I am feeling a bit down about writing in this blog because I had hoped to […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 15 – Preparatory Healing and Clearing"
My husband returned from Florida early. For the first 24 hours after his arrival I had this sick feeling in my stomach. He confessed to me later that he had the same feeling for about twice as long. I did not see this as coincidence but I didn’t tell him that. Prior to his arriving […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 14 – Time for Action"