The time since my last post has been difficult. I suffered through ever increasing panic episodes, mostly when driving but also when doing other things in public. When driving to and from work I often experienced more than one panic attack and would have to breathe deeply and talk myself through each one. It made […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 19 – Feeling Stuck"
My husband returned from Florida early. For the first 24 hours after his arrival I had this sick feeling in my stomach. He confessed to me later that he had the same feeling for about twice as long. I did not see this as coincidence but I didn’t tell him that. Prior to his arriving […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 14 – Time for Action"
So much has transpired in the last month. It is amazing how much things can change in such a short period of time – how much I’ve changed. The Kundalini has been quiet for the most part. I have shifted gears once again from focusing on the spiritual and energetic back to focusing on the […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 13 – New Awareness"
There have been some new developments since my last post. Last month (February), my husband began to share with me some of his thoughts and realization regarding Ray. His communication was very sane, balanced and logical indicating he had put much thought into what he was telling me. At first I was cautious but the […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 5 – New Developments"
One of the issues I believe I am meant to resolve is my marriage. In fact, it may be the primary or a sub-theme of “Part 2”. Around the time I stopped posting in this blog I had made the decision to stop having sex with my husband. I had many reasons for this, the […]Read more "Part 2: Chapter 2 – Marriage Upheaval"